Music : Sarah Brightman & Andrea Bocelli - Time To Say Goodbye (Con Te Partirò)
Mood : Content

I think there’s something about bittersweet love stories that make me feel euphoric inside.

Twilight, Becoming Jane, If You Could See Me Now, Pushing Daisies, Zettai Kareshi … they all top my list of favourite bittersweet love stories. Usually paranormal, because normal is too real.

I sort of like this bittersweet affair. They turn me into a teary sappy fool, but still, I can’t help but feel enveloped with warmth and contentment at the end of it. To me, the thing about a bittersweet love story is… It spells pure love.

Like, how you know that the future has fated you to part, but you still feel connected through your affection for each other. Even though when the shittiest things happen and you cannot be together, and that even when you have already ended up with someone else, they still run through your thoughts often. Or the danger that you possess within yourself could kill them instantly if you lose control. Or no matter how you try to end up together, fate always has a knack of making you both somewhat anti-magnetic.

And even though the sexual tension between you is killing the both of you, you still stay together despite not being able to kiss or be intimate. Because all it matters to you is that you are in love with each other that even without having one kiss will not tear you two apart. The pain, instead, heightens your affections and makes you want each other more.

Then although reality hits you hard with the shittiest consequences, you learn to live with it. And sometimes even when it’s not spoken, you look at that person you once shared stomach butterflies with, and just know that the person is thinking and feeling the exact thing as you are.

And in these bittersweet love tales that I indulge myself with, as disheartening as it sounds, loving is not always having. Sometimes, it just means letting go.

And after reading and watching these stories, I make up the afters and in-betweens of the obvious story to make myself feel happy about it — like finding joy in the pain, like a fanfic in my own head.

—

And to my dearest Pierre, Happy 1-Month-to-Our Anniversary Day! :P

Posted: May 4th, 2009 under daily.
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Music : Sting - When We Dance
Mood : Awkward

Tag 15 people to do the same. Don’t forget to tag!

Last beverage ? Water
Last phone call ? Janice
Last text message ? My Boss
Last song you listened to ? Sting - When We Dance
Last time you cried ? Last Friday

HAVE YOU EVER:
Dated someone twice ? No
Been cheated on ? No
Kissed someone & regretted it ? No

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
Fallen out of love ? No
Laughed until you cried ? Yes, while indulging in gossip with Janice and Jacq
Met someone who changed your life ? No
How many people on your top friends do you know in real life? ? Everyone
How many kids do you want to have ? I was thinking 4, but 5 is a good number too
Do you have any pets ? They’re back at home in Sandakan
Do you want to change your name ? Nevaaa!
What time did you wake up today ? 7.45am
What were you doing at midnight last night ? Chatting with Kathlyn
Name something you cannot wait for ? Panasonic Lumix DMC-Fz28
Last time you saw your father? Early January
What’s one thing you wish you could change ? That Singapore, Kuala Lumpur and Kota Kinabalu are miles away from one another
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom ? Haha, no. Tony, yes.

What’s getting on your nerves right now ? Nothing in particular
What’s your real name ? Tatiana Emelia Laban
Elementary/Primary School ? Chi Hwa Primary School
Middle/Secondary School ? St Cecilia Convent Secondary School :P
Hair color ? Black
Long or short ? Short
Are you a health freak ? Not really, but I can’t live without vegetables in my food
Righty or lefty ? Righty

FIRSTS :
First surgery ? Nevaa!!
First piercing ? Ears, when I was 6.
First best friend ? A girl named Frendy, in kindegarten. Never saw her in primary school, we didn’t even say goodbye :(
First sport you joined ? Basketball
First pet ? George the Cat
First vacation ? Kuala Lumpur, when I got 3rd place in Primary 6.

CURRENTLY :
Eating ? Nothing
Drinking ? Water
Waiting ? For Pierre’s call, but I’ll prolly call him to wish goodnight.

YOUR FUTURE :
Want kids? ? YES!
Want to get married?? Only waiting at the moment :)
Careers in mind? ? Creative Editor

HAVE YOU EVER :
Kissed a stranger ? Kinky, but no
Drank hard liquor ? Till I had hives :P
Lost glasses/contacts ? Countless
Ran away from home ? No, I lock myself in the room
Broken someone’s heart ? Intentionally and unintentionally
Been arrested ? No :P
Cried when someone died ? No matter whose funeral it is, yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
Yourself ? YESH, FAITH WILL MOVE MOUNTAINS! (That’s what my fortune cookie told me)
Miracles ? Yes :)
Love at first sight ? No.
Heaven ? Yes
Santa Claus ? St Nicholas? Yeh.
Kiss on the first date? Haha, no.
Angels ? Totally!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Is there one person you want to be with right now? ? Yes :(
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? ? Haha, I had my days :P
Do you believe in God? ? Yes, forever, Amen :P

Consider yourself tagged! :D

Posted: February 24th, 2009 under daily.
Comments: 1

Music : The Cure - Friday I’m In Love
Mood : Blissful

“She’s just not that into you … if she takes a dump in your toilet.”
- He’s Just Not That Into You

So true.

Girls are just like guys, the only difference is, they think and rationalise more. Guys, they take the straight road, no frills. Girls, tend to take the winding road, with the occasional junctions along the way. Guys, once they’ve planned something, they can see clearly the goal that waits at the end of the road. Girls, the goal usually changes.

Girls may find it hard to break it to you that they’re not into you. They either ignore you or just be nice and go with the flow, because they can’t break it to you that you’re too desperate. Only on an exceptional case that the girl tells you that there’s something wrong with you. On some unlucky events, she avoids you then you go on to think what the hell is wrong with you. Surely, you think that girls should just come clean with you, but in truth, the reason they don’t is because they’re afraid to taint the friendship (if there’s any), plus it takes great courage to actually tell the guy. So girls’ way out are either helping him by telling what he’s doing wrong or skip the friendship-budding stage and ignore. And if the latter do happens, and maybe if the guy is observant enough, he’ll ask what’s wrong, if not then dense forever he will be till someone who has the courage to break it to him comes along, or even someone who actually likes his quirks (which means that he doesn’t have to change, it’s sort of soulmate thingy).

Tip: If the girl doesn’t answer your call once or twice, and never returns your calls, then she doesn’t want to talk to you.

But here, you must watch THIS… convince your boyfriend/husband/potential love material to watch He’s Just Not That Into You. My utmost favourite part is Justin Long sliding down the wall in tears - PRICELESS! It’s as close as reality could get, and you would find yourself going “That’s happened to me before”, “Shit, I know this”, “That’s so true!”.

Mmmm and Bradley Cooper is hawt in the movie :) 2nd favourite to Justin Long - this is the first time I watched him in a serious role. Last I watched him was in Dodgeball (Ugh!) where he acted as a sissy boy with no sports talent in his body, didn’t fancy him at all then. I mean yeah, he’s a good actor! SO yeah, sissy-wise, that worked :P Ahem, okay enough of the i-love-boys talk :P Tata!

Posted: February 23rd, 2009 under daily.
Comments: none

Music : Nat King Cole - L-O-V-E
Mood : Crossed

“I think God is really testing us”, I sobbed to Pierre on the phone.

Fate has always managed to find loopholes to screw up a perfect day. It seems like every step we take brings us further away from each other. I mean, it hadn’t really bothered me much as we’ve been used to this distance issue ever since my university days. It’s grown to be quite a norm to us until recently. I’m going back to Malaysia for good in about 2 weeks from now, to be closer to Pierre as one of the major reasons. Even so, there’s still some crazy twist of fate that would bring us even further away from each other.

“If you can’t take it, you know you can always leave”, responded Pierre, sensing my distress, not knowing how to put it but thought it was a possible solution.

I don’t normally write about Pierre and I when it comes to bad times, but this really, really, really hit me bad. Like stab-in-the-heart-and-falls-to-the-pit-of-my-stomach bad.

How could he even think it? How could it even be an option? It’s like committing suicide because you’ve lost your job, when the tactful way to dealing with it is to find another job, even if it’s not your dream job but at least you’re moving somewhere, instead of throwing your whole life away.

We have been together for almost 9 years now, and him responding like that is telling me that he still doubts us. 9 bloody years! And he gives me an option! Like what the hell have I been doing sitting around for 9 years, choosing him over many other boys who think themselves worthy?

I called him crazy and told him to shut up.

He insisted that he was just being realistic about this. But to me, if he was really being realistic, he should have just kept it to himself. How could he say such a thing? He said that if I was suffering, I shouldn’t have to because I don’t have to. Then I asked him whether he knew the meaning of a relationship, I didn’t wait for him to answer and said, “It’s about being sad and happy TOGETHER”.

If I did want to leave him, I wouldn’t waste my breath saying “I think God is really testing us”. In fact, I wouldn’t even feel miserable. I wouldn’t even say it in the first place. I would instead just let this relationship die. I would just be bitchy and make him leave me. Then he goes on saying, “If you leave, of course I will be sad” to which I answered, “Shouldn’t you be fixing it instead of killing us?”

There is a solution to everything, and killing it shouldn’t even be an option.

I was so bloody crossed and heartbroken that I spoke in English in perfect sentence with a Queen-of-England accent that only surfaces in heated discussions like this - I was downright furious!

Any guy who says this to his girlfriend, is a bloody coward; because you can fix it, arsehole.

I didn’t wait this long to be given an option, I waited this long to be given a solution. I don’t believe in break-ups, it’s either you fix it or you live with it. You break up because one of you have given up, that’s how I see it. And I can’t tolerate with that.

In the end, I made Pierre promise never to talk about this ever again.
I won the case.

Posted: February 19th, 2009 under bad days, daily, nathalea.
Comments: 4

Music : Michael Bublé - Summer Wind
Mood : Distressed

Rules: Once you are tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

1. I see Henry Cavill as Edward Cullen in my head ever since I started reading Twilight a year ago. I still do. Sorry, Robert Pattinson… I like you better as Cedric Diggory.

2. I like Bella Swan in the movie better than in the book itself.

3. I grew up with ambitions of being a journalist, a stewardesss, a teacher and a scientist.

4. I started using the internet at the age of 11, which was in 1995 when we still used the Terminal and Winsock to connect to the internet on an amazing 28.8kb/s modem that I used to worship. And that was when I learned to write HTML in notepad.

5. I was so excited about it, I wanted to set up a online club (inspired by girltalk.com). I had a hardcover book sorted out in jobs, activities, login/passwords, etc. As ambitious as I was though, the online club thingy was never realised.

6. I used to write essays, decorated the papers in pencil colour, and later pasted them on the wall in my living room. My mom was my editor.

7. I had no idea how to spell my name when I was younger. All I knew was I had T’s and A’s in my name and scribbled what I thought was my name.

8. As a kid, I once drew two big elephants that were larger than me in the spare room downstairs, in blue and black pen.

9. When I was 3 or 4, I tried to give my puppies a bath in a wash basin. My sisters rescued them of my innocent intention – some puppies didn’t make it alive :(

10. On the first day of kindergarten, I asked my mom to go home while I skipped happily to class.

11. On the first day of Primary 1, I cried and begged my mom to stay. And occasionally I ran out of the class to look for her in tears as soon as she left the classroom.

12. I visualise smells and tastes in a horizontal graph-like motion. Like, how connoisseurs describe the taste of wine in notes.

13. I secretly love the smell of a freshly lit cigarette. And that’s it.

14. I have already dotingly thought of the names for my future babies!

15. I can’t believe I have 10 more things to random reveal about myself.

16. I just had my hair trim, and I look like someone who just escaped the mental asylum.

17. I drool for men with nice arm hair and leg, neat goaties, ear-piercings, brow-piercings, emo-hairstyles and nice veins in the lower back arm.

18. My favourite past-time is imagining I see handsome guys at the corner of my eyes transforming normal-looking male faces into hawties.

19. And Pierre, my darling boyfriend of almost 9 years recently approved of it! :P

20. Throughout the 9 years that I’ve been with Pierre, despite the hundreds of miles between us now, this is the longest time that I’ve ever been the happiest.

21. O mai god, 4 left.

22. I will continue eating one, I repeat, one favourite dish until I get utterly bored then move on to the next dish and make it a favourite. And my living on my favourite food usually could last for a year.

23. My interests are usually made up of recommended books, music and movies.

24. I like being oblivious to the world. I like my own space. I like my own pace. And occasionally I wake up from that oblivion feeling like a ball of energy – up for anything!

25. Cy Rimmon from My Blessed Demon is my fictional character of perfect guy.

Yay capice!

Consider yourself tagged.

Posted: February 18th, 2009 under daily, reads.
Comments: none

Music : Clazziquai Project - Iconic Love
Mood : Gah

I am shleeeeppppyyyyyy!

Last night I turned in, my best record yet, at 11.30pm. Then I awoke at 7.15am today, refreshed than ever. However, I think it’s only good if done once every week because I get groggy if I sleep more than 6 hours in a night. And no more afternoon naps either! I thought I could sleep like there’s no tomorrow during the weekends, but no, weekends are the worst time to sleep in. I’m feeling it… I’m getting old :(

Posted: February 10th, 2009 under daily.
Comments: 4

Music : Ricki Lee - Can’t Touch It
Mood : Playful

Random wordplay on Tatiana Emelia Laban and Kathlyn Ursula D’Souza, and we don’t care if it doesn’t make sense. Half of the universe don’t, so why should we? :D

Person A: Tat, I ain’t'na aim Lea, Lab and Kat the Lean!
Tat: *unsure, looks at commanding officer* Err, Sir Laa?
Sir Laa: *looks at Tat’s shoes* The shoes are… ?

Person A: Tat, I ain’t'na aim Lea, Lab and Kat the Lean!
Tat: *unsure, looks at commanding officer* Err, Sir Larr?
Sir Larr: …The shoes, aye.

Person A: Tat, I ain’t'na aim Lea, Lab and Kat the Lean!
Person B: Err, Sir. Lathe the shoes, aye.

And the finish off, here’s a favourite clip of Wayne Brady screaming his oh-so-complicated name.

Posted: February 8th, 2009 under daily.
Comments: 2

Music : Tiny Star - Moumoon
Mood : Wondering

Copywriting is “getting across the perfect message, with the perfect words.”

- Wikipedia

Hmm. Should I do it?

Posted: February 7th, 2009 under daily.
Comments: 4

Music : Twilight OST - Bella’s Lullaby (Yes I love this song)
Mood : Indifferent

This is one of the days when you feel like the whole world is crumbling down on you, one thing after another. But to keep up with everyone else, you still have to keep going.

What happened today did not feel as bad as it was roughly a month ago. I took it better this time, held my guard, even stood steadily. But despite it all, I gained a new friend. So I guess it’s not such a bad thing after all.

This is also one of the days when you just want to watch the world go by. In a third person’s view, it looks like people walk pass you in blurred motion, and you’re the only one who’s clear right in the middle of it all. It seems like you’re left behind while everyone’s busy getting on with life, but at the same time it feels strangely serene that nobody notices you from where you’re standing.

I didn’t exactly have a bad day nor did I have a good one. But today certainly wasn’t an ordinary one.

Posted: January 16th, 2009 under daily.
Comments: 2

Music : Twilight OST - Bella’s Lullaby
Mood : Not sure

Okay, so I tried integrating my meaa.aesthetiques.org into my tatianalaban.com, and it just didn’t work out. The feeling of moving my whole life into my work space is like suddenly being exposed naked to the world, and that’s not how I want to feel ever. I like my personal space. Kathlyn, too, likes the line detaching my personal self and my career self. I have to agree with her.

Anyways, I find Wordpress 2.7 faulty - now even as I blog, I’m writing on HTML view instead of Visual, cos it freakin’ doesn’t work! The text editor for Visual has disappeared and my text colour is white. Like, what is going on here? -_-”! It’s really frustrating. And I ran into some plugin problems with my tatianalaban.com and my Lightbox effect on my images is gone, now the images just bloody open up in the current browser. I’ve been at it since last night, and now I just give up.

Happy New Year, btw! I know I’m late.

Posted: January 11th, 2009 under daily.
Comments: 3

Music : Don’t Worry Be Happy
Mood : Not sure

Handbag Planet - Win a Handbag every hour on the launch of their website tomorrow! :D

*jumps around*

Posted: October 15th, 2008 under obsessions, omfg.
Comments: 3

Music : None
Mood : Extremely worried

I am in dire need of your help.

Please pray for my father and grandmother who are both now in hospital for different illnesses. My father has got Parkinson’s Disease (PD) and to complicate it more, he has pneumonia. His PD has deteriorated and now he is in hallucination and he wouldn’t sleep (he hasn’t slept for 4 days). I fear it has to do with his medication, but the doctors don’t seem to be doing anything about it. My grandma had stroke and now paralyzed, unable to open her eyes and swallow properly anymore, and only answers with a faint yes/no. I pray for them to get better soon, I hope you will assist my prayers.

Thank you and may God bless you ever more abundantly.

Posted: September 4th, 2008 under bad days, daily.
Comments: 4

Music : Jesse McCartney feat Baby Bash - Leavin (Remix)
Mood : Invisible

Have you ever felt like your existence didn’t matter? Just as if you were dead, people would still live normally?

I hold my breath real tight whenever I feel pressured - I can control my emotions better that way - like when everyone’s treating me shitty, or  when I unintentionally make someone sad and they abandon me, or when no one cares or pretend they cared. And you just want to close your eyes and forget it all, be in your own world. I bet insanity is a wonderful place - freedom to slap yourself silly, make up stories in your head and befriend imaginary friends (okay that one I got from Cecelia Ahern’s book, called “If You Could See Me Now” .. it’s so beautifully written that you feel like having an Ivan in your life).

I need a good cry. A good long cry.

I’m not so strong after all. It’s tiring being happy when you’re not. It’s tiring having to put a smile on your face when all you want to do is cry. I’m sorry, for whatever reasons that I don’t know. I’m sorry.

In this world, nobody really cares about you anyway. Not even the ones closest to you sometimes. Or they choose not to care because they see things differently from you. They just ask you questions because they think that you want someone to listen. Well, fuck that. I know most don’t fucking care anyway. Why bother to make small talk when you’re not really listening? I guess talking to people is just an escapade from reality. But what if people want to talk about reality? Who do they go to if not their friends?

I guess my life really is like Elizabeth Egan from Cecelia Ahern’s book, except that I’m not a gnirob like her. That’s what Ivan calls her - a reverse of the word boring. Very creative, I must say. Ivan is the imaginary friend, though he doesn’t like to be called imaginary because he’s a real person, except that only people who wants to see him will see him, and he remains invisible to most in the gnirob community, who are adults. But Elizabeth Egan can sense him and eventually see him then fall in love with him. Ivan, who never felt such an affection before, too feels the same way about her. It’s quite sweet how he cares and worries about Elizabeth, how he makes her laugh while answering and asking innocently (which he is), how he stops by the house and brings energy and happiness with him like life is a dream. All his life he had only worked with children, and Elizabeth is his first friend who is as old as him. He’s a professional best friend, out to seek those in need of companion. And at first when he arrived at her house in Baile na gCroithe, he thought his mission was to help her nephew, Luke, since Saoirse (Luke’s mom) most of the time is in her own world and forgets that she has a son. And Saoirse can see Ivan; he never had 3 people sense his presence all at one go before. And suddenly Elizabeth could see him too. And after a while pondering into her life and his own, he finally realised that his mission was to help Elizabeth, not Luke. So gnirob Elizabeth who used to decorate inteors with white and beige, now explores colours, seems like she’s talking to the air, lets her hair down, run in fields and catch and making wishes Jinny Joes (Irish Daisies). I’m still in the middle of the book.. I wonder if it’s a happy ending. I don’t want the book to end :(

I finally had the guts to finish the book, and it was a happy, though bittersweet, ending. I’m not going to spoil for you somemore. You have to read it. I finished 200 pages last night, I laughed aloud to myself in my bedroom, as if I was watching a movie. Of course, the movie was in my head. But I didn’t care. My love/hate relationship with the book made it my all-time favourite book. I declare Cecelia Ahern’s If You Could See Me Now one of my essentials to happiness, just as how the movie Pride and Prejudice is an essential to my happiness. The book that once sent chills down my spine and gave me goosebumps due to talks of imaginary friends and places, now enables me to flip to any page and I’d be happy and still want to read on. In fact, right after I finished reading it, I re-read the first page again and I wanted to re-live the book once more. Only one read, and I remembered all the details there were in the book. Like, how you tell someone “I can read you like a book”, that’s how I say I can read the book like a book, in a non-literal sense, or literal, depends how you see it.

And as I was reading the book, there was already an image of how Ivan would look like. And I’ve found that person who looks perfect in jeans, converse shoes, black hair with a blue cap and an adorably innocent face - Justin Long. I never did like him, but he gave Ivan a face. And if he acted as Ivan for this movie, I’d screaaaam!! :D :D :D *haha, yes I had to put that smiley no matter how I restrain myself to keeping this blog smiley-free* Yes .. I would scream.

I read somewhere that Hugh Jackman is going to star Ivan in the Disney motion picture for this story, but Justin Long will always be my Ivan.

And I don’t know why the song I’m listening to now reminds me so much of Ivan and Elizabeth.

Hey baby girl, I’ve been watching you all day
Man that thing you got behind you is amazing
You make me want to take you out and let it rain
I know you got a man but this is what you should say

Why don’t you tell him that I’m leavin’ never looking back again
You found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry, no more gray skies
Girl we’re flyin on the G5 G5

Maybe there’s a hidden meaning behind all these words, that’s calling out to me. I’m leavin’ never looking back again means more to me actually, because throughout the whole song, only that phrase stands out above the music.

Posted: September 3rd, 2008 under daily, euphoria, obsessions, reads.
Comments: none

Music : None
Mood : Neutral

OMFG! I’ve just got to upload these (from yearbookyourself.com)! FUNNY SHITE! ROFL!!

Posted: August 29th, 2008 under daily.
Comments: 6

Music : NEWS - Summer Time
Mood : Better

I had a little “me” time as soon as I got home from work last night. I didn’t switch on my laptop right away, instead I took a shower, lied on my bed watching a bit of the Olympics Table Tennis on TV (playing at extreme distance away from the table … bloody amazing to watch!), caught up on reading Lauren Weisberger’s Chasing Harry Winston (about three best friends making drastic life changes), then called my mom and she passed the phone to Eleanor, Desiree, DD and back to my mom again - Updated them about how I am here, how I found St Anthony’s Church being so much like the church back at home, and how the choir sounded like angels with just one tune, they sang different levels of voices to it. It was breath-taking to listen, and I had the urge to walk up to the choir conductor (who looked like he was conducting an orchestra with his flowy hand movements) and tell him “Sir, can I join your choir?”. Think of Christmas carolling, must be a breeze! I’m still contemplating though, in regards to my busy schedule to write and design at the same time. Each time I have to switch from writer-mode to designer-mode, text-mode to graphics-mode, and on occasions, text-and-graphic-mode at the same time. It’s a wonder how my brain can switch like that. It’s fun though, I just wish I had more time. So far, work has not exactly been I-pull-my-hair-out kind of stress, it’s been more of a still-in-control stress, but still stressful nonetheless.

Anyway, I felt better after the little “me” time. Yeah, a little time can do wonders :)

I feel like watching the Love Guru but Janice’s not too keen on it, since we watched 2 lousy movies in a row. But it’s Mike Meyers! And the trailer looks promising.

I. shall. watch. it.

Posted: August 23rd, 2008 under daily, euphoria.
Comments: 3

Music : None
Mood : Dejected

I’m sad and lonely and I have nobody to talk to.

Posted: August 22nd, 2008 under bad days, daily.
Comments: 10

Music : Kanjani8 - Goujou ni GO!
Mood : Charged but anxious

I’ve got Creative Zen X-Fi to keep me company nowadays. Well, actually it’s been a day. Haha, I sound like Giselle from Enchanted.

“No, it’s really been a day” (or something like that)

But yeah, it is love! :* It was just plain spontaneity that I bought this yummy device, without prior research. I bought it solely because it was the latest on the market, and Janice had mentioned to me before that it has a voice recording function which would come in handy during interviews. And guess what? My 8GB Zen X-Fi has no wifi! 16GB has! So does 32GB! And it’d only be a hundred bucks difference if I were to get the 16GB. Bloody hell! My happy face fell the moment I saw “16GB (Wireless LAN feature)”. The regret, I tell you. Anyways, I promised DD that I’d pass to her when I’m done with my 8GB, so I can upgrade to 16GB. Wahaha! She apparently lost the mp3 player I helped get for her 2 years ago. So maybe in a few months, she’ll get mine.

I adore my noise-isolation earphones. Putting it on, you’d feel like you’ve turned deaf; but when you switch on your music, MUSIC is all you hear. I rode on the train yesterday morning - that was the first time I properly put my Zen X-Fi to use - sat next to a girl who looked like she broke into a sneeze and I couldn’t hear a bloody thing! Wahaha! Yes, sue me for being naive and outdated but I’ve fucking excellent earphones, I tell you!

Ahh. My Zen X-Fi, my refuge.

*commercial break*

I thought I wanted to make this sound like a happy post, beginning to end but work calls. Hmm. But I will not falter!

I’ve inserted my favourite songs - Aqualung’s Brighter than Sunshine, Arashi’s Sakure Sho, Kanjani8’s Goujou ni GO! (They seriously need to come up with a new single FAST!), David Cook’s Always Be My Baby… okay, that’s to name a few. Tee hee.

And walking to work from the MRT station this morning, in my deafness towards the outside world, I realised that tar road is nicer to walk on than the cemented pavement, every footstep on it feels draining and every step forward makes you feel like your hip bones are gradually thrusted into your upper body. I actually even feel my breathing intensifying with every step, so I guess I’ll stick to walking on the tar road from now on.

Ugh. I can’t stay. Have to continue work. Be back later.

Posted: August 19th, 2008 under daily, euphoria.
Comments: none

Music : Arashi - Sakure Sho
Mood : Exhausted

Kathlyn made me miss you, dear blog.

And yes, I do miss you deeply. You will hearing from me more often, no matter what the topic, I promise :*

Posted: August 19th, 2008 under daily.
Comments: 6